miss meliss

so i have so much going on right now. my dad has been out of work fora really long time and it is really taking a toll on my family and my mom and dad talk about it all the time, but when ever i try to talk to them they say everything is ok and i know there is something wrong, becasue i am just the kid they dont think i need to know anything which really makes me up set. i know i am old enough to know what is going on in my life. but i hate living at my house right now because every one is on edge and for some reason they take there frustation out on me. so i have just put my full focus in school and friends. i just wish my dad would get a job. so we could get back to somewhat normal. i am also confused we what i should do about i problem i have. it involves my 2 friends and it might end up hurting one of them so i dont know what i should do? life is so complicated and i don't think it will get any easier so i guess i jusrt have to deal with it.

 ok so i really dont know who is in charge on this thing anymore but i had a question to who is. i was wondering if someone who wasn't on the website could join like someone right from out class last year? so if who  ever is in charge could read this and get back to me please and thank you.

ok so i don't think that iam going to be able to write anything in the next two days so here it goes. i am not feeling so great right now because this weekend ( as in tomorrow) me and my mom are starting all of our cook for thanksgiving whitch makes it really hard for me because that means this coming tuesday my brother is leaving for god only knows where for boot camp. and i just heard that after he is done his basic trainning he might have to go over seas at that scares me so much. but this weekend is going to be very hard. For some reason i feel like nothing is going right in my life right now. With my brother leaving and my sister leaving. And now my grandad won't talk to us. It just doesn't make sence to me iam so confused right now i need help? please help me figure things out?

ok so just over the summer i just relized how much i adore this weblog i find it so refreshing to be able to talk to people whe ni have aproblem, i don't know if any of your guys know but i am not a very outgoing person it is kind of hard for me to ask for help and talk to people in person. so this is my way for asking people for help like i sadid in the title i need pray, in just like 2 weeks me and my family are having our thanksgiving. it is because my brother is going to be leaving us before thanksgiving. my brother has decide to join the army national guard and i know he will be in boot camp for a while and i know it is very unlikely that he will ever be sent over to a war zone because of the national guard is more local branch. but that doesn't let me sleep any easier, i am just so scared for him and his new wife. i know a lot of my friends have gone of to war and not came back and that really scaries me. and another thing i need pray for is my sister and best friend is going to college this jan. and i have never been about from her then more then a few days and that really make me upset becaues i wont see her untill school gets out and that is a really long time. i know i am being selfish when i say stuff like tha but i also know this is what she wants to i just have to let her go. but everything is just coming so fast i was ok with my sister leaving in jan. but when i found out that my brother was leaving to that just made me upset so much. i just feel like everyone is leaving me and i am here all by myself. i also had this dream i while ago that i am in this room full of my family and then a secound lateri was all lone by my self. i am just a little scared these days so back to my point . i just wish that all of guys would keep my sister and brother in your prays and my just to god that he will give me strength to handle everything that he is throwing at me right now and to get have to strength to get my sister go.