noli me tangere

scio enim quia non habitat in me hoc est in carne mea bonum nam velle adiacet mihi perficere autem bonum non invenio

non enim quod volo bonum hoc facio sed quod nolo malum hoc ago.

(romans 7:18-19)

quite possibly one of my favorite verses.

For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwelleth no good thing: for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not.

For the good that I would I do not: but the evil which I would not, that I do.

So who even says that? It's honesty at its best.

'What I want to do, I don't do. What I don't want to do (sin, mostly) I do! There's nothing remotely good in me. I have that ridiculous ability to 'choose'...but I don't even know how to choose the right thing.'

That's me. I want to do the right thing. I can't. I should. I am a guilt ridden piece of carne.

quis me liberabit de corpore mortis huius????

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Think about the things that you want. Or have wanted. Or will want in the future, maybe.

How /are you going/did you get/will you get them?

Sometimes things that I need bother me. Because I have to ask, and the method of asking varies with different people I encounter. With my parents: I use pity. 'Please!!! I really, really need gas money. I have work now.' With friends: it's more like 'you know you can wait for that money I owe you' in a goodnatured ribbing. With my elders, whom I don't quite know as well, I'm more of a....we won't go there.

My point is: so far my life has been full of different methods to get to the same end. This could be horribly wrong. I maybe should just suck up to everyone from whom I want something.
It's not likely that that will happen.

Maybe I'm horribly crafty and clever. Probably not.

I get tired of people. I guess it's because I work in retail.

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So those are my two faves.

I guess I like the first one because that topic is so interesting and relative to me. I love that. Love John. He is so smaht. At the end of his outcry he asks, (translated from the Latin) "Who will rescue me from this mortal body?"

My question: Who will?

The second one I appreciate because I think I wrote it at a time when I was really depressed and downtrodden from working ALL THE TIME. Since I have time off now I guess I'm not so world weary, but I always like to look back to see how I feel at certain points. Tres interesant.

Happy I'm Graduating Friday!